My son convinced me in 2012 to buy 80 acres of rough brush, trees, snakes, creeks and poison ivy next to a river an hour from my job in the big city. Without a clue I started in on weekends and learned to build and repair roads, bridges, water wells, houses from start to finish, solar systems, gardens and create wildlife habitat destroyed by human neglect and unnatural burden of no wildfires and high caliber hunting. I was uncomfortable and overwhelmed and strangely drawn to the work. One day I realized the place was teaching and guiding me, I wasn’t running anything. Slowly I grew to be comfortable with the dark nights and only nature sounds and put away my AR-15 for good. I learned in the gathering darkness of dusk to talk to the trees because they were rooted, comforting and the general spokespersons for the grass, soil, terrain, wildlife, insects, water and wind and they reassured me encouraging stillness and quiet. The whole place is connected and intelligent beyond my wildest imagination. It feeds me, consoles me, corrects me and encourages me. It is the future. If I can grow to be as natural as the nature which surrounds me then I am assured and accepting and fear falls away. I have a lot yet to learn but it has taught me far more than I learned in college or decades in corporate technology. Good luck with your journey.