It is, for me, not easy to break this pattern. I am an extremist and addict by nature (recovering alcoholic now almost two decades sober). I have had the 12 step people drill “honesty” into me and objective observance of my own patterns as a clue to my shadow self. My shadow self (a Jung theory I accept for now) seems obsessed with this non-useful eating too much too late habit. I’m committed to making progress, we’ll see ….